the war inside

 

We are always in constant battle with our own self. We have a lot of inner demons to fight. There are some days that we won, but there's also some days that we lost. We have to check and re-check again our iman, our morals, our self-control in order to not lose so much, so frequent. Or we'll lost ourselves. What's important is self-realization. If we always keep in mind about how good or bad we are each day, we will always make an effort to improve. We are humans, so as long as we are still breathing, we are all exposed to the attractions of lust and excessive desire.

 

The key to do this successfully is to do it slowly, bit by bit, but continuously. We can't just do a little and stop, or we'll never get pass that transformation gauge level. Try to leave the source of our lust and desires bit by bit, and exchange it with positive materials. Don't ever let your mind be idle, fill the void with the positive things. And the most important thing is never let our prayer down. Always keeping it up, and hot, and continuous. Keep our relationship with Allah swt warm, if we never forget Him, He will never forget us.

 

An insight to ponder on, if we are a good person, we will always feel bad and guilty if we realize that we have made a mistake. So, if we are still able to feel that guilt, we still have our iman close to our heart but it really need to be revved up. The problem is when we don't feel any guilt or worry or something amiss when we leave our responsibility as a Muslim. Then we won't realize our mistakes.

 

Every day is a battle day. And this piece of writing is an effort of self-motivation to remind ourself to keep fighting, for whatever wins or losses that we get each day, we will bring them all with us, after we stop breathing, that's when it all stop.