amour

 

Last night we had a rather deep conversation about the future. After all these years of knowing each other and having this really long distance relationship, we really need to have this discussion. It was quite tough. I have my hopes and expectations, and so does he. But in the end, we want the same thing. However, there's a lot of things that we have to put up with if we really want to build a family together. Our families, our base, our financial means, and our way of life. In the end, we agreed to take this one step and see how it goes. If both of us can sort things out afterwards, Alhamdulillah. If not, maybe we're not meant for each other, and that will break my heart.

 

Such huge mountains on my shoulders, I don't know if I can withstand. Sometimes I doubt myself , can I pass these hurdles in my life? I have a lot to do to improve myself, to be better. I have a lot of mending to do. Mending and 'repairing' myself to seek His blessings, to ask for His guidance. And I know I can't break down and cry before really trying to succeed.

 

Years ago, I'd never have thought that things will be this way, that I would meet this man and fall in love.

 

All this roller-coaster feelings....because I fall in love.